My Personal Feelings

First off, I am going to make something clear: I am NOT going to confess my love (because everyone knows I love myself most! No, not really. I'm not that conceited. I just don't love love anyone.) I'm just going to explain my feelings... to people in general.

My feelings are very... subdued. No, that's not it. My way of expressing my feelings are ALWAYS, and I mean ALWAYS less than how I really feel for someone. So if I don't show anything... like, if I am very passive around people, that doesn't mean that I don't like you or anything. It could mean that I like you very much, it's just that I don't really show it. Then again, it could mean that I really don't like you. But you probably wouldn't be reading my blog if I didn't like you... so yeah.

On the other hand, if I do show my feelings for you, that must mean I REALLY like you. I'm usually like that with many of my closest friends.

But that's the thing. If I ever did "fall in love" with someone or you know, had a real crush (it's always been obsession before this) I wouldn't be able to show it. Unless he was one of my best friends and I really liked him (which I really hope so!) This characteristic of mine will probably be my "fatal" flaw (don't know about fatal... I don't think I'm going to DIE just because I can't get a boyfriend before high school) in getting a boyfriend, let alone a husband. I'm so worried I'll have to live my life alone... without ever getting a husband...

Okay, I'm a little young to think about that. I can always live with my parents right? Haha, psh.

Anyways, the whole point is, if I don't show much enthusiasm when you arrive at someplace or when you say "Hi Cindy!" or whenever I see you or talk to you, that doesn't necessarily mean I don't like you. It could be tiredness, a number of other reasons, or simply my personality. Or simply because I don't like you. Okay?

But then again, maybe I'm faking my liking you... Maybe I'm faking... whoa, I never thought of that. I've never really thought of faking my affections for anyone! Jk jk I have. But usually when I'm tired, so technically I'm not faking. I'm just honestly trying to do what I would normally do.

I love you all! *hugs*